jackie. and earl. where would i be without my RETRoONEz?? jax, my verizon viatchh!! thank you fer everything! all those bonding sessions, exchanging of advice, sleep-overs, dances, funny times, inside jokez, etc. i wouldnt be who i am today without u. i knoe we havnt been 'talking-talking' lately, like about deep stuff, buh always kno dat im gnna be here fer u. n i kno if i hav any problemz, i kno wer to reaCh u. earl, my 'repmaster'!! ahhHH, wer do i start. u n jax been here fer me to joke aroun n fer serious thinGz. das why wer calld da 'retroOnez' lol. iSs been sucha long time we made that up im starting to ferget why we even call arself dat. all i remember is a sleepover and da song 'keepin it gansta', instead iss, KEEPIN IT RETROOOO..-=P. everytimE we wud hav a sleepover at jax house, U would start all those rhymez, funny buh hot.lol. miss yooh earl!! u two arent REPLACEABLE!

yawieh. mac. janice. and tina thanks bunny fer all those talks n advice. fer always making me feel better about sum thingz and otha timez juss to play aroun [lyk talkin bout 'yer gerl' aka 'dat animal' LOL] we kn0wn each otha fuh a few yrz n hope we stay as 'tight' as we arr now =) "we gotta find NEW people" lolz, truu truu, love ya buqz. hubee, ive known u fer practically MORE than half of my life n u been der fer me the whole time. cant find or see a dae being mad at u, i knoe we havent been talkin to each otha lykk before. bout deep thingz n 'stuff' koz i havent seen u in a while buh hope to c n talk to u soon mac! tiny, even tho im not on yer liss i wnted u on mine. ive known u fer 2 1/2.. 3.. 3 1/2 yrz now?? n u been da greattttess. u n yer advice. iss juss lykk damM, frm everywun i can go to. dis chiq is da wun i would go to ferss -=) those thingz about 'him' iss going away little by little. i DID tell him how i feel koz i REALLY NEEDED to let that out. n yeaa. NOW i know frm talkin to him, he is not 'the wun'. thanx fer everything janice! sis, thank u fer all those talkss. da exchanging of advice. n da dorking out. lol. yesss!! u finally knoe da ELECTRIC SLIDE!!! haha, hope to talk to u soon tinnerrRz.. i got summore 'thingz' to share -;P

marie. jen jen. and arlyne MARIE, da so-called #1 iverson fan [ lol -=P ] i jus started talking to you a few daiz ago n i remember how we used to TALK..aLOT! in the past. dhose conversationz on da fone, aol, aim, emailz, letters.. lol. sumthing i remember a WHILE ago, i think 2 summerz ago was wen i wnt to li n u wer finally at qnz n was lookin fuh me buh i wasnt home so den u leff me a letter at my door dat sed 'hey shortay' or sumthing. n to FIND A PEN u wnt thru all that trouble askin strangerz fer penz.lol..awwww 'tallay'. happie we started talkin agen. n by da wae, thnx fer da banner ^up^ derr -=). jen and arlyne, u 2 r like da people i can go to fer ANYTHING at all.. Jen, i met u las yr round October n we gotta bond dat nowun can compare to. lyk i neva knew that sumwun u can jus meet hav the conversationz we have todae n be comfortable wit dem 'jus like that'. we can lyk talk about our problemz together ANYTIME at al. n b open to eachother without being skared to say sumthing. thnx fer all those talks! arlyne, u n jen'z frendship wit me iss similar in a wae buh onli i've known u fer a longer time. not months..buh YEARS. all our conversationz arr always different conversationz. like wun day we talk about a band..den NEVER talk about it agen. den da nex dai we talk about 'guys' n never talk about those same guys AGAIn. den da dae after that we talk about a diff. group of guyz. lol. iss weird. buh am happi i gotta frenn lyk u!

THANK YOU ALL fer being there fer me thru thick n thin. now i knoe wuh having a TRUE frenn rilly meanz! mwaa. lavv u all =*

*had a talk with you a few days ago .... told u how i felt n i denno if u even kared .... u sed u missed me, buh that was the past .... seemed lyke u already got ova me n moved on .... n am happi fer you, muh problem iss that i just cant move on .... i've been constantly trying to find sumwun new to get over you, but wen i had a 'little something' with sumwun, i always end up thinking about you n of course that messed it up fer da both of us .... iss now been almos 5 months since we broke up n i knoe iss obvious i've been missin you .... buh iss weird cuz i never felt like diss before .... i regret saying i love you to sumwun wen i was really missin you .... i guess i was trying so hard to get over you that my wrdz jus slipped .... now me n 'him' aren't talking anymore .... buh i still believe once you tell sumwun u love them n mean it, u cnt eva stop loving them .... even tho i wasnt true to him, i am really sorrrryy, i kn0e u wnt fergive me after all i did ²you n put u thru buh knoe dat i am soRryy .... yer decision of not talking to me, i guess is da right thing to do .... figurez, am not gonna be in a relationship anytime soon .... i need more den da enuff time to get over you .... see wuh mistake i did.. n learn from it ..........

o5.26.o2 still remainz in a little place kepp in my heart =* mwa

HATERS - those who hate,detest,abhor,abominate, and loathe.... in other werds.. YOU..

find other things to do, all ur duen is wasting ur time because u jus wanna put others down and because u KNOW theyre better than you. im deeply sorry for u.

buh thanx for always thinkin about me and using your "valuable" time going through all of this for ME..

"honey im ready to spend my whole life with you kus i love you, yes i do, i never thought in a million years that i could feel the way that i feel, how i get butterflies, whenever your lips touch mine, i muss confess my dear, that it was constantly right from the start, a special bond between you and my heart, how it skips a beat whenever our eyes meet, and simply said the reason being, because i love you, your the flame the sets my soul on fire, that special guy i pray for every night, that pretty melody, that plays over and over again in my head.. kus i love you" -thnx leeny, u da bess!!

10.28.02 . YESTERDAE wnt to da mall wit jax, meli, earl, francis, and mik to meet up wit 'sis' , rin , and avery. was looqin aroun fuh sneakers, tin ended up not qettin anythinq. wnt to the food coart, CROWDED, so we bouqht food n went to da McDonalds nex to the mall. with our TACO BELL n CHIKEN TERIAKI, lol. ppl wer starinq buh hoo kares bou em?? =P .. wnt to da train to qo to hillside [jeff'z place] fuh da practice. omg, in da train, we wer SOOOO LOUD.. aqain ppl wer starinq..lol, we da center of attention werever we go, hahaha.. we tooq pix, sum ppl opened up giffs, ppl SANG, DIS SUMWUN was goin down da poll as if dey wer at da park in da playgroun, LOL.. anywayz. aftuh da train we transferred to da bus, n wnt off to jeffs.. at practice i watched dem dance..talked, chilled, wuhever.. after practice ther was a fiite wit jerome [fns] n jayjay [tbs].. jeffs parents had to calm dem down.. omq, jeffs rentz qot sooo pisst at em, dey wer lyk, "i let u in my house, offer u everything, and in return u give me diss?? get out now! go home!" etc.etc. .. u kno how da deal is wit parents. well my advice is to let them 2 jus "fight" their battles alone because nowun rilly got da riie to join da fight wen dey didnt do krap to yoo..u kno? i understand u qotta defend yer frend buh fers leh him do it himself.... if it doesnt werk out riie..u kno wuh to do.. aftuh dah me, yen, yaweih, jakx, earl, francis, mik, clark, jeffrey,jay.ar, n sum otha pplz waited fuh jayjay near da bus stop buh he dint sho up, so we split, few ppl wnt wit jayar n clark n dem n yaweih, mik, earl, francis, jacxs, yen, meli, and me heded baq to qnz.. in da train AGAIN, we wer da center of attention.. OOOOHH MMYYY GOOODDDD, jackie with her "NICE" voice started shouting/singing sum backstreet and boys to men songs.. lol.. haff wuhs clapping to make the beat and singing along while da other haff was crakking up n acting like retardz [like me] lol.. i put my bag on the floor and opened it n whus askin da ppl fuh money..hahahha.. sed bye to yaweih kus he was qoin home n he had a few more stops leff.. ended up near VIM, wnt to looq fuh kixx.. dint finne any. stayd infronta qnz center koz kevin was picking meli, jaxs, and yen up to go to steez'es party. so it was jus me, earl, francis, and mik leff. earl n mik wanted to eat buh me n francis didnt wanna eat out so we jus wnt home.. dae was over fuh us.. jus stayd in da house, eat, n wnt to slp....

10.29.02 TODAE wnt to cherch.. got surprised koz tina n meli wer there wit jaxs n her fam. ate out wit em to eat sum chinese food.. wnt to ihawan.. laundry.. n wnt to da kar to SLeep while i was waitin fer da laundry to finish koz i dint wanna stay in da rest.. once i got in i realized my baq was outta my site..i PANICKED koz der was over 250 dollarz in there, RAN outta da kar,locked it, retraced my footsteps like 8 TIMES, asked everywun if dey saw it, askd da laundry person, ppl in tita renees restaurant, ppl in ihawan UP N DOWN, MY MOM, n dey sed dey dint see it.. i got sooo skared i wnted to cry.. so i thought da onli place it would be is in the car onli if it fell sumwhere n sumwun tooq it.. so i ran baq to da kar wit my sis, starting from da baq, i lookd under the bakseats on top of the bak seats, on the edges of the seats up to the front seats.. until i ended up under the passenger seat... panik wuhs gone so it wuhs all baq to normal... now im to0o over protected of my baq.. dat was the reason i stopped wearing em las yr..=/..after all da panik i wnt to da mall wit my sis n my mom.. looked everywhere for a jacket. fers wuhs KAMP, den it was EPIC, aftuh wuhs MACYs.. den we ate, thinking of which jacket to get.. in kamp i was thinkin bou da snorkle, like wuh jakkie n tina got buh offwhite.. in epic i saw ALOT from baby phat tuh rockawear i had a feeling i was gonna get something from there.. and i didnt find anything at macys.. decided to qo baq ta kamp n see how da SNORKLE looked on me.. thought it looked soo cute buh i still kept lookin jus incase i found something else.. tried on da all blak EXTREME n da red n blak EXTEME and i noticed that it was exactly like my brothers buh without da fleece connected to it.. den tried on da different shades of blue SPYDER thought it was better den how da snorkle looked on me.. so my eyes wer on that wun.. den tried da all bak with white lining SPYDER koz dis qerl roun my age or a yr older told me dat would look nice on me n it did.. once i tried it on, i noticed it had da fleece u can leave on or take out n saw alotta pockets EXACTLY like my brothers.. i was like, he's gonna kill me buh iss nice, wuheversz.. so i got that wun.. =) finally got a new jacket..lolz.. satisfied wit wut i hav now.. o yea, i also got white pants which i neva had frm 4ever 21.. always wanted white pants! lolz.... wnt home saw Janice n tina, janice showed me my jerzee on her and tina showed me her hair fuh yens party, U 2 R SOOO CUTE!! tina, yer hair isnt bad! once i got in da house i was sooo lazy n had nothing to do so i decided to CLEAN my room for the ferst time,lol.. not really, buh everytime i do, i clean fuh hourz! started frum 4:30 tuh 6.. dint notice i got so much summer shirts... soo yea, muh dae is over now.. sorry yen i couldnt go to the party. i still love yahh!!

n tuh da hata hatin on me on jackies xanqa.. efff uu.. u dont kno me!! dont b kallin me a SLUT because i dont sleep around with NUMBEROUS guys arrite!!!?!?